Another McD Obsession~

I just love McD so much! And I’m gonna miss McD so much when I get back to Perlis. (yeah, Perlis mmg xde McD; nasib baik jugak xde kalo tak mmg my family jadi pelanggan tetap and all us would be as huge as Shrek!!)

Right in front of me is a young couple with a very very cute son. The husband muka Cina habis but his son mata bulat gile!! (I wanna marry now and have kids!!)

Typical, the son is showing his tantrum and his dad was like dah geram2 dah dengan anak dia. Mak dia sabar je… Bagus la mak macam ni. I wonder whether Mama was patient with me when I was small (or I was such a very good girl. Hehe). Adoila, anak dia cute bangat!! I dunno why but I think the father is a doctor. McD Pandan Jaya lagi best dari McD Shah Alam cos lagi banyak kids coming here. I’ve been talking to 2 Chinese strangers since I sat here. One was a school boy and another one was a college boy doing accountancy course.

On second thought, the baby dah kurang comel. Hehe.

Daddy called me just know and I know he was very eager for me to come back to Perlis. I duno whether I can bear living in Perlis in long period of time cos I can foresee that I might be having arguments with Daddy again. But I’ll never know. I am more mature, and Daddy is now much much more wiser than when he was young. Mama too was eager for me to come back when she called me earlier. We talked about Najib. Mama said, for now, accept what it is now. If ada jodoh, ada lah. If takde, buatla macam mana pon, takde jugak. I know that Mama now is much more wiser too.

I love it when people around me gets mature as I am getting mature too. No more getting annoyed of Mama when she whines like a small girl (I wish).

:-)
Previously, there was this guy with a small little boy. I think he was the grandfather of the said boy. Kesian tengok that guy terkapai-kapai makan dkt McD. Rasa macam nak pegi tolong je amikkan sos, straw, etc. Then I heard him calling someone and said “beras dah abis”. Padanla datang McD makan ye.

I think I need a husband now!
:-p

Another McD Obsession~

I just love McD so much! And I’m gonna miss McD so much when I get back to Perlis. (yeah, Perlis mmg xde McD; nasib baik jugak xde kalo tak mmg my family jadi pelanggan tetap and all us would be as huge as Shrek!!)

Right in front of me is a young couple with a very very cute son. The husband muka Cina habis but his son mata bulat gile!! (I wanna marry now and have kids!!)

Typical, the son is showing his tantrum and his dad was like dah geram2 dah dengan anak dia. Mak dia sabar je… Bagus la mak macam ni. I wonder whether Mama was patient with me when I was small (or I was such a very good girl. Hehe). Adoila, anak dia cute bangat!! I dunno why but I think the father is a doctor.

McD Pandan Jaya lagi best dari McD Shah Alam cos lagi banyak kids coming here. I’ve been talking to 2 Chinese strangers since I sat here. One was a school boy and another one was a college boy doing accountancy course.

On second thought, the baby dah kurang comel. Hehe.

Daddy called me just know and I know he was very eager for me to come back to Perlis. I duno whether I can bear living in Perlis in long period of time cos I can foresee that I might be having arguments with Daddy again. But I’ll never know. I am more mature, and Daddy is now much much more wiser than when he was young. Mama too was eager for me to come back when she called me earlier.

We talked about Najib. Mama said, for now, accept what it is now. If ada jodoh, ada lah. If takde, buatla macam mana pon, takde jugak. I know that Mama now is much more wiser too.

I love it when people around me gets mature as I am getting mature too. No more getting annoyed of Mama when she whines like a small girl (I wish).

J

Previously, there was this guy with a small little boy. I think he was the grandfather of the said boy. Kesian tengok that guy terkapai-kapai makan dkt McD. Rasa macam nak pegi tolong je amikkan sos, straw, etc. Then I heard him calling someone and said “beras dah abis”. Padanla datang McD makan ye.

I think I need a husband now!

:-p

I know~

I know that I have unseen beauties…

I know that no one knows…

Random~

I’m gonna miss school so much…

I’m gonna miss the yells, sarcasms, misunderstands and heartaches of LLB(Hons)…

I’m gonna miss the life where I don’t have to think about my finance…

I’m gonna miss the life where there were not much responsibilities…

I’m gonna miss Riverdale Apartment, Bukit Antarabangsa so much…

I’m gonna miss the time where everything was so easy…

I’m gonna miss Taman Selaseh, Gombak…

I’m gonna miss the things that I did when I tried very hard to make someone’s family look at me as someone who deserved their child…

I’m gonna miss the complaints about me and the waiting in the car for hours…

I’m gonna miss kite-flying with him so much…

I’m gonna miss Teratai College…

I’m gonna miss Kampar, Klang and the house with very extravagant loads of cats so much…

I’m gonna miss the feeling of having a family when my family is in Perlis…

I’m gonna miss the hang-outs at Midvalley with someone and having fish wraps as a must…

I’m gonna miss the cam-whoring with someone…

I’m gonna miss the feeling of being loved by someone so much… (which I think I would not have the same feeling again)

I’m gonna miss McD’s ice-cream whenever I feel down…

I’m gonna miss the time where someone would take me for a ride to see the KL lights whenever I feel stressed…

I’m gonna miss the feeling of having someone who adores me so much… (which I think there would not be that someone again)

I’m gonna miss the times when I and my true friend splurged on Nasi Lemak Jati…

I’m gonna miss the feeling where I think I was the best girlfriend someone could ever have…

I’m gonna miss Neway Karaoke Centre…

I’m gonna miss the times when I and my true friend went to Pasar Ramadhan to feed our eyes instead of our stomachs…

I’m gonna miss the sleep-late and wake-up-early everyday…

I’m gonna miss the feeling of hope that someone would just open up his heart for me…

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After this, it’s all about family…
After this, it’s all about being a better person…

After this, it’s all about building up my career…

After this, it’s all about being an adult…

After this, it’s all about compensating my siblings for the neglect that I’ve done…

After this, it’s all about being a good sister…

After this, it’s all about being a good daughter…

After this, it’s all about a guy to chase after me instead of the otherwise…

After this, it’s all about being the best grandchild ever…

After this, it’s all about believing in my own self…

After this, it’s all about having fun of my new life…

After this, it’s all about learning and growing up…

After this, it’s all about being firm…

After this, it’s all about learning soft skills…

After this, it’s all about doing things I wish I would not regret of not doing…

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I just hope that someone would love me as much as I would love him…

Maybe the time hasn’t come…

For now, it is still empty…

I Just Wish...~

I just wish that things go my way...

But it didn't...

I just wish that we were never apart...

But we didn't...

I Never Knew...~ (all written during Mr. Rajes' hearing)

I never knew that life would be so amazing when you’re in final year, final semester…

I never knew how much I’ve learnt about life when I knew my frog prince…

I never knew that I would miss Najib so much. More than I can imagine…

I never knew that I actually can’t wait to be a grown up…

I never knew that I would want to take care of my siblings as much as I would want to take care of my child…

I never knew that I would love someone as much as I would want to take care of him the rest of his life…

I never knew that I would miss my friends here in LLB (Hons) so much I can’t imagine…

I never knew that life would be as colourful as I can imagine…

I never knew that I would one day be grown up…

I never knew that when I love someone, it doesn’t mean that he or she would love me back…

I never knew that I would miss Mr. Rajes and Tuan Lee this much…

I never knew that I would be the one who takes care, not being taken care of, my whole life…

I never knew that Akmal would be forever Jud…

I never knew that I would be close to my Senior Partner…

I never knew I would want to be a mother as early as this age…

I never knew that I would see things differently as fast as this…

I never knew that I would understand what mama feels towards daddy until I know this person…

I never knew that my bestest friend would fall in love with such a nice sweet handsome adorable guy…

I never knew that I'm missing my bestest friend this much...

I never knew that life would not be like what we’ve planned…

I never knew that I would miss Radhi and CT this much…

I never knew that when you’re close with friends, you will not have big fights that will distance us…

I never knew that I would love someone this much, that I would never want them to suffer…

I never knew that I would actually want a simple life…

I never knew…

My Love~

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It has been a long while that I haven’t blog. Now am I stealing some of my time where I’m supposed to revise for tomorrow’s civil test. BORING!

Well, these 2-3 weeks had been very hectic. Lots of time that I almost give up of striving hard for good grades. But, thanks to my friends, especially Fadia and Fauzi, and the most made me inspired was Daddy – thanks Daddy, I know I mean so much to you and that you love me so much that you would never want to tell and show me. I never knew that you love me THAT much.

Daddy said that I am more like my granpa instead of like him (as all of my family always said). Yes, I have the nature which are like my dad but my dad sees me differently from others. In any ways, I am so PROUD to have his traits. As for my granpa, I just envy him and would want to be like him. He is my idol in life. Granpa – idol; Daddy – proud of being his daughter.

Yes, I blog a lot about my family. I don’t care what people would say that my thinking is so close and would not talk about current issues. I guess, that what makes me different. You can talk to me about politics, current issues etc and I can argue and give my opinion on those. But despite of I can talk about that, I still choose love and family as my topic. All the time; without fail.

I’m just missing my family right now. Things are getting harder day by day but luckily I have my support; who are my family, a best friend, and a boyfriend.

I miss the good old days where my grandparents would always, without fail, whenever we were on a trip to anywhere, they would talk about how I was when I was small. I said that “tok and tokwan asyik ulang cerita yang sama ja tiap-tiap kali”. And they’d say “nak buat macam mana, dah cucu sulung ja ingat cerita, yang lain-lain tak ingat pon.”

How I know that daddy loves me so much is when my grandparents started to wind up the old stories about me, daddy would interrupt adding his version of story. I never knew that he loves me until two years ago, something knocked on my head, making me realized that all these while that daddy had been talking about me when I was small, he was actually telling everyone that he loves me so much. Still, the memories about my other siblings wasn’t that much being told by him.

Whenever I think back about this, it will always be my wake up call for not drowning in the stream of nonsense where I can find everywhere in KL. Whenever I feel like I am going out from the route (especially when I almost giving up in studies – as that is the ONLY thing that I can’t cope), I will spend some time looking at my old photos when I was small. (Cute jugak me when I was small. Hehe).

The album contains pictures of mama and daddy when they were lovers at college, when I was 1 day old, 1 month old, when I lived with mama in Terengganu as daddy was still an undergraduate, etc.

Yet, I have been a bad child.

I was once almost being kicked out from my house. It was all because I was being rebellious that daddy couldn’t take it anymore. But, I got to my sense and I didn’t ran away from house.

I am such a complicated daughter to be raised. I never thought that this daughter whom they adore so much would turned up to be someone so rebellious when she was in high school.

Having this thought making me think of the babies that their parents adore them so much. The children at the playgrounds, the mall, the bookstores, etc. They were given all the love that they can have. Will they at the end of the day, remember what their parents had given them? I think there are some children who just don’t.

Alas.

My granpa is getting older day by day. He said that he was very scared that his speech is now getting slurred day by day. His weakness now is to deliver his speech in the court. (I wish that I could once in my whole life, watch my granpa performing in the court before he couldn’t anymore – my aim during chambering). My granma has been walking with sticks since I was form 5 and now, even with sticks, she barely can walk as she always does. Going to malls is her favourite things to do but she is not keen now as she doesn’t have that much energy and the fact that sitting on the wheelchair makes her dizzy and ashamed at the same time. I can’t bear looking at them getting older day by day.

Sad..

Right now, I wish that I could take care of my grandparents until the end of their lives. At the same time, I want to find a guy who loves me like my grandparent and my parents love me. I couldn’t risk myself being a wife to a guy who does not love me that much.

I wish…