Another disturbing piece of mind~

Its been years that I've been having this kind of feeling. The feeling of when you know that people around you are so impractical, so intolerable, so annoying. Not being part of the typical people around me, at one point, makes me feel lonesome.

It may sound pathetic as it may be but the fact is that, it is. But reminiscing incidents that had occurred in my life, I think, all of these are worth it. Worth it? Cos it makes me strong, makes me different, makes me the minority, makes me not typical, makes me the person who 'campak la katne pon bleh hidup'.

'Campak katne pon bleh hidup'. I once argued with my friend on this statement that he actually made towards me in which he said that I'm lucky cos I'm the kind of person who can live whenever the world takes me. In which I don't agree with him. I may be a lucky girl, with a family background which money matters are usually not a big issue, but don't people know that money is not everything (well eventhough I agree with his statement that money can solve most things). That was the issue when I positively argued with him that we as Malays, should not feel comfortable of what we have (in which he don't agree with me, by raising the fact that I don't come from a family like him). For me, it is not the reason of where you come from in order for you not to participate in this 'competitive world'. Sejak zaman nabi lagi we compete. Why must now, we don't maintain of what our ancestors did? Being Malays in Malaysia, having the 'hak keistimewaan' etc, should not make you put yourself in the safe situation. I remembered when I told Najib what I argued with my friend, the news were aired on the television which I saw LOADS of CHINESE representing MALAYSIA for Olympics. No wonder they asked for 'hak kesamarataan' between us, cos they contribute A LOT to our country! I'm not saying that we did not contribute anything to our country, but please... STOP TALKING S*** AND START DOING IT! I don't wanna talk much since these may raise many sensitive issues. But, from this humble 21-years old girl, still studying, as what I OBSERVED, the Malays feel too secured (in which it is not the fact actually) and all I wanna say is that, EVERYBODY, WAKE UP AND WORK HARD! cos we are living in COMPETITIVE WORLD.

Ok, back to what the I actually wanna write here. Feeling lonesome. The fact that I can mingle around with ANY people that I want to, but knowing the fact that only few that I can regard as my friends and best friends, whenever they went back to their family over the weekend, this is when my heart felt empty. Loneliness will always be my friend and I'm quite sure then even when I get married, this might not fade away, knowing the nature of men with their mid-life crisis, provided that I STILL have my friends, I might not be alone going through the journey.

Life is KARMA...

People Around Me~

It's been looooonnnnggg days that I haven't updated my blog.

Loads of things that happened along the way from the day I started my LLB(Hons) in which I find those are very interesting. Since there were too much things occur in my life rite now, let's start with things happened most recent.

Hmm... I realised that, not I've JUST realised but it's been long time ago dat I realised how bad a person's mouth can be. I could not imagine a person, without knowing the truth, when he/she was not there at the exact time and place when the incident occured, can tell the story in which other people don't even know (yela, sbb org lain tu xde dkt tempat kejadian). N how a person can just tell stories which were not 100% true to other people, making other people doing presumtions that is not even true? Oh yeah by the way, I don't have the skill to write as good as my dad write, but I just do! :-)

Talking about just do it, why there are people who only talks but never do? Those people preach here and there and it shows other people that they are so great since they talk like angels! and to one extend, they manipulate those people who don't have their own principle in life! Gosh. Even when I write this, I smiles of how stupid people can be. :-)

And another thing, why does people don't even be sensitive and care about how other people feels about things that they did? Don't they realise that they are living in society, in which they have to forever be sensitive of their surroundings? Is that why they are so jealous with people who can live like "campak je katne, mesti leh hidup nye." Is it what they did of what they did, they did it with the intention of making those people who are immune with what other people think about them, to make them 'fall' and be part of them? Or they did that because they feel unsecured of themselves who don't have anything to prove to people that they are worth to be friend with? Don't they realise that they are living in a world called politics and society? And don't they believe in 'karma'?

Karma is such a strong word for me. For me, karma is really true. Even in Islam, Allah s.w.t also guaranteed us that WHATEVER we did to people around us they will be reimbursed of what they did? (as this is called 'hubungan sesama manusia'). I dunno. I believe in this strongly. Talk about our relation to God. That is hollistic in which we cannot compare and even comment on other people's relation with God. But as things that we can see with our own eyes, feel with our own 5 senses, for me, I think this is more important in real life. Yes, we have to 'tegur' people who might stray far away from the real path that Allah gave us; but what is that for if we ourselves could not even take care of our relations with other people around which we can see with our own eyes? - daddy, is there any comment?

We can say that we don't need others in order for us to live. But, if one having this kind of principle, I suggest that they just live in 'hutan' where you just have to only bear with the other living things other than human beings. People who don't even care about other people should just die. I mean, hello, we are living in SOCIETY OF PEOPLE, not ANIMALS.

Well, I shall later write more as I need to socialise with people. :-)