A Really REALLY New Beginning (Nah!)~

Today is the hardest Monday blues ever!

Been having midterm break for the whole week and today is the first day of class. The whole week I had stayed in Shah Alam, enjoying every moment I am here til the day that I must leave Shah Alam to finish up completely this LLB course - chambering or as Rajesh said; "read in chamber".

I did met Najib over the holiday. Once and it was very hard for me. Huh... I know that this will end soon when he is in Ireland in the middle of this month but yet, when you have a mother who called you and never have fail to ask how is the condition of your ex-boyfriend; it annoys you to the max. It may seems like I am the one who is the party at fault here.

End of story.

I met and hang out with some people here in Shah Alam. Such a nice holiday it was. Ada orang tu pegi Brunei tak ajak!!! Hahahaha! Jangan lupa aku punya souvenir weh! :-P

And ada orang tu, hari ni still on holiday sebab Hari Willayah! Huh! Jealous!

What I learn a lot over the holiday was - don't have a relationship with a person whom you do not want to end the relationship. In other words, don't play play.

It is such a cliche for me because before this, I did not want to end my relationship with Najib. But there are things that I realised along the way when knowing him that there are things in other people's life that you just couldn't change them. So now, I am trying to find a person whom I don't have to change any bits of him nor he has to change any bits of me and we will just change according to situations, not our PLANS.

There are much and a lot that I would want to say but I don't think that now is the correct time. I shall update this blog with this new weird journey I am going through right now. What is so new is because this time, it doesn't involve family at all. Only me, myself and friends.

Til then~

A Story of Letting Go Someone Important in My Life~

It has been a while that I haven't blog. Nothing much I could express but one thing for sure I had to let go one person that is hard for me to let him go in my life.

Najib.

Me and Najib, there's no more relationship between us. No more "in a relationship" thingy, "open relationship" nor "it's complicated". Its an end. What holds us together now is just a FRIENDSHIP.

It was very hard for me, but thanks to Najib, he acted cool and didn't join my soberness.

Abang, thanks for everything. You taught me a lot about life, about compromising, sacrifices, not always have what I always wanted, etc. Sometimes, things that we planned would never happen or not even close. This is hard for me that you're leaving. We couldn't predict things in the future even though we thought that we felt the aura was so strong. We are still young. Our wants and needs are different. This is the best for us.

I couldn't imagine how my life would be if there is no you through out my whole process of learning about life in my university years. You were always there when I need you, but not all the time. You made me strong. You believe in me in times when I don't even believe in myself.

You were always be the good one in our relationship whilst I am on the other hand. People were always pity of you having me as your girl but I didn't care of people's say. What I care was your say. I was very strong headed, but you toned me down. You're an obedient child, whilst I am not. I can see you being successful but I couldn't see who would be your iron lady.

I would love to.

But, waiting and waiting for you to be at the summit, is not the kind of idea that I am fond of. You would always be the career type, and I will always be the family type. It is a complement for each other but the timing is just not right.

I need my space to learn about life my own way. Without having you by my side as.

Go chase your dreams. Make me proud.

People changes, so am I and you. What would never change is - I LOVE YOU.

p/s: Thanks for the memories...