Opinion Writing??~

Isn't opinion writing is based on YOUR opinion, not on others' opinion??

Correct me if I am wrong.

Sunday getaway~

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Yesterday was awesome!!

After all the fuss and stress and tiring weekdays, my frog prince splurged me with a nice one-day-get-away to kite flying at the beach! :-D

The scenic was ghastly awesome! I had fun and we chatted a lot about how to mend my life, how to just accept that not all people will like you (even your bf's family), etc.

Saturday was Fadia's day and work day too! But, thanks to Fadia, you made my day, babe! Love ya!!! :-D

Frog prince, I know you do love me. And thanks for teaching me how to be a lady. :-)

p/s: Eyna, jangan jealous!!! :-P

Mistake~

The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one.
- Elbert Hubbard

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I am so afraid of choosing the wrong person to fill in my fragile heart...

Still Not Moving On...~

I never knew that the story between me and Najib would end like that. I am now and will not tell what had happened that day and what I''ve been through with Najib all those 4 years.

It was an end.

Well, it wasn't suppose to end. We're suppose to be friends but it hurts me to the deepest corner of my heart that it does end.

But still, I would like to thank him for making me more wiser and more mature. All the things that we've been through, still I couldn't believe that it will end like this.

My frog prince said that it was lucky for me that it ended up like that. If it ended the way I could imagine, my life would've been more miserable. Luckily that they made you mad, annoyed, dissatisfied. When I get to think about it, yeah, I should be thankful that it does ended up the way it ended up (and at the same time, making me missing my frog prince more for his wise thought).

:-)

I was Najib's first love. There's a lot he has to learn about relationship. He is still a rookie. I would not comment further.

Now, I must move on with my life. Today, I arrived class at the time I always did last semester. I never been early since this semester starts as I hadn't the mood to go on with my life as my backbone was leaving.

Now that he left, I am now with NEW life, NEW spirit.

But the memories are there. It will never fade away. I love the memories. I cherish the memories. It makes me stronger, spirited but at the same time keep on reminding me of what I am, who I am.

Thanks for the memories.

I will take time to move on or I might not. Right now, THE face still lingers in my mind.

There's no more love in your eyes; even as a friend. As if I wasn't there in your life, in your heart for the previous 4 years.

Thanks.

p/s: I miss my frog prince...

:-(

About Frogs~

I now have 3 GPS-frogs on my car's dashboard, one cute frog-car, one frog-kite, and one frog prince!

Saje je nak bgtau.

Happy!!!

:-D

Termination of Directorship?

It was over!!!! Yay!!!

Lega rasa hati dah go through Hajran's. She's the best!

I aim to be like her!

WITH my loved ones as my backbones...

Sayang, I love you! (eventhough I know you don't read my blog as it is not up to your level of thinking; but I don't care)

:-D

I Like to Move It, Move It???

I should move on...

So bad...

The Outcome?

I am sure that most of you would want to know how I felt after he left.

Menyampah!

Ada hikmah rupanya kenapa me and him was not meant for each other...

Kite-Flying, At Last!~

I adore this soooo much!~

I love the legs~

The two frogs; one which I adore so much and another one is a frog prince (whom I not yet kissed). Haha!~

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Finally, my wish to kite-flying with my loved ones has totally granted! After all these while, been forcing my friends to come with me to kite-flying had never been fulfilled; yesterday was the day!

You couldn't imagine how the sky looked like yesterday! It was awesome!

What I love most is being able to forget things that have been making my life miserable for one whole week for last week! Tomorrow is Najib's flight to Ireland, and I am ready for the worst that could ever happen to my emotions.

I just hope I can be strong...

Doubts~

Najib is leaving on the 17th this month. Night flight.

Shall I go or shall I not go??

If I go, more works to be delayed, one class will be skipped, more tears.

If I don't go, will I regret??

Help~

Another Thought~

I am suppose to do my Ethics assignment and having this kind of food poisoning which is killing me softly as Rajesh's class is coming soon at 2 p.m. (Rajesh has now black listing my name due to tido dalam class, pegi toilet, datang class lambat). Sheesh... Bad image, but nevermind, he's not in my reference list for my resume. :-D

While I was on the loo (how bad a thinker can think), I've been thinking of changes in life which I have to endure and how mentally prepared I am. I am now ready for big and maybe even the biggest changes in my life. All this while, I've been secretly on my own emotion theraphy which I hadn't tell anyone.

But...

What I am not ready and prepared yet is how to tell my mom (at the same time, my family) about what I want in life.

Things happen rapidly, even me myself couldn't endure. But, I still believe in my fairy tale. :-) How childish it may sound but I've seen fairy tales do happen in real life. But to maintain the happiness, it needs a real vast effort being put on.

Soledad...

That is what I hate most and I hope I wouldn't have to face it long enough to keep my sanity uncontrollable. Fadia is now moving on with her life, in Johor and all over the country and over the world she may go; Najib pursuing his studies abroad; whilst me, amongst the first of my childhood friends who is going to go through another level of life change - working. Luckily I have my grandfather with me, my mom, my dad, my family. One tiny space in my heart is yet still not being filled up.

Tipula if I say that I NEVER miss the moments when I had him by my side, to be my backbone in achieving important things in my life; apart of having my family with me. I guess, I will never survive alone. Not having a guy to support me.

Typical.

I don't like being typical. But, there are things in life that I guess, you have to be typical in order for you to be part of the society or else, a loner you shall be. So, I don't mind being typical in that sense.

As usual, I am thinking wayyyy too far from present. This is me. I am me. A thinker will always be a thinker. I tried not to think too much but this is a process. Not a thing I can call a drastic change.

Til then~

A Really REALLY New Beginning (Nah!)~

Today is the hardest Monday blues ever!

Been having midterm break for the whole week and today is the first day of class. The whole week I had stayed in Shah Alam, enjoying every moment I am here til the day that I must leave Shah Alam to finish up completely this LLB course - chambering or as Rajesh said; "read in chamber".

I did met Najib over the holiday. Once and it was very hard for me. Huh... I know that this will end soon when he is in Ireland in the middle of this month but yet, when you have a mother who called you and never have fail to ask how is the condition of your ex-boyfriend; it annoys you to the max. It may seems like I am the one who is the party at fault here.

End of story.

I met and hang out with some people here in Shah Alam. Such a nice holiday it was. Ada orang tu pegi Brunei tak ajak!!! Hahahaha! Jangan lupa aku punya souvenir weh! :-P

And ada orang tu, hari ni still on holiday sebab Hari Willayah! Huh! Jealous!

What I learn a lot over the holiday was - don't have a relationship with a person whom you do not want to end the relationship. In other words, don't play play.

It is such a cliche for me because before this, I did not want to end my relationship with Najib. But there are things that I realised along the way when knowing him that there are things in other people's life that you just couldn't change them. So now, I am trying to find a person whom I don't have to change any bits of him nor he has to change any bits of me and we will just change according to situations, not our PLANS.

There are much and a lot that I would want to say but I don't think that now is the correct time. I shall update this blog with this new weird journey I am going through right now. What is so new is because this time, it doesn't involve family at all. Only me, myself and friends.

Til then~