About a Person~

I was listening to a song, a very nice one; ‘On my knees’ by Nicole Mullen, when I started to shed tears…

I never knew that I would cherish a person this much. A person that has shown me the life of never ending joy, an everlasting life. Even though he had pushed me away as deep as the valley, I know, it is for my good. Even though it was too much for him to do that to me, but my never ending love for him pulls me back.

I know I love this person so much. So much that I would never let him push me again; by merely sacrifice...

Thanks for never ending joy you've brought me into...

My Teacher~

After a long while my close friend had gone, I finally realize that it was the truth… I felt like it was not happening at all, the same like I felt like Michael Jackson’s death was not true. It was unbelievable.

Ct has been the most influential friend I’ve ever have, I’ve ever been with. I can still remember when me, Radhi and Ct were together strolling around KL in my car, when we stopped at one KFC. We talked about how life was, how life is, and how life would be. The three of us has been so close since that night, that we spent the whole day together.

In my eyes when I look at Ct that night, I saw a very determined person yet very fragile. She can be the soaring lioness in the forest yet can be as fragile and gentle as a swan in the lake. That is how Ct was.

I can boldly say that without her, I would not complete my LLB. She has been the backbone of mine since Najib left my life, bits by bits. I thought I could endure the feeling of losing a best friend but my thought was wrong. There came Ct and Radhi to comfort me in all means. Ct was always there when I need her, despite her busy schedule as the senior partner.

Being a senior partner, losing her 5 years best friend to another, being the eldest in the family with parents to take care of; she was the strongest girl I’ve ever met. Being in a situation where datelines, exams, different kind of colleagues as our daily bread, she managed to face everything. Even the strongest girl you see in the faculty can fall with just one situation that occurs in her life, what more three or four chains in a row.

She was a very dedicated person in everything she does. She treasure friendship so much that she would never hurt her friends. Even if she did, it was not her intention at all. She's a very petite girl with full of smiles on her face and very spiritual indeed. One would never thought that this small girl has been through a lot. Her favourite dish to cook that she would call me for a dine, was anything that goes with sup. Sup ayam, sup sayur etc. And we made a whole lot of begedil with sup ayam and had been eating them with a heavenly feeling. I miss her so...

She told me that she would always want to join the ‘Pegawai Tadbir Diplomatic’ but took AG Chambers as the starting point. She dreamt for a new car when she ever start her first job. And, alas, she got all that and went away with all those too...

Her death was a tragic to me. It happened so quick. At around 12.50pm that Friday, I had the urge to call her to ask her a favour but instead I called Kak Linda for the favour. A great force has been telling me that she was into something but at that time, I couldn't read what my spirit has been saying. A call around 6pm shook my senses when Shida called me and told me the news. I can't help but cry in the middle of pasar ramadhan. Everyone of my family was so sad because Ct is always in between their ears as I have always talked about her. Well, she was my close friend though, the whole two semesters of LLB...

I miss when we forced each other to study, because we know we were lazy and being left behind in terms of the grades. Thanks to Radhi, he would always be in front of us in tests. Lol. I miss when we had to wait for Radhi (who does not know how to time himself) for our meetings and study groups. I miss when three of us would treat ourselves with 'omelette oyster' at Subang. It was so 'lepak' for us. A lot of things I've spent time together with Ct but one thing for sure, she was an angel...

I would always miss you Ct. Your absence is still a dream to me...

I love you.

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God with Me~

While I was browsing the net, looking for what is new on the blogshops, I saw this:



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How I hope that I can take care of my father and my mother...

I wish that things will be alright when it is time... God puts the right person, at the right time, at the right place...

But I know I have a never ending happy life; cos I have God with me...

I love you all...

Faith~

Is what I have in me and because of Faith, I did miracles in me...

Faith is also my heart and soul...

Faith,

He taught me how to perform miracles,

He taught me how to be strong and courageous,

He taught me how to pray,

He taught me how to have so much love in my life,

He taught me how to spread love,

Faith,

He brings smile to my heart,

He brings joy to my life,

He brings me love,

But,

He's leaving...

Yet, the Faith in me will remain forever in my heart...

Me New Found Love~

I love my new life...

:D

My Love~

There is this guy...
He taught me about God...
And I am so delighted that I can use my brain that God gives me to reason things,
Use my eyes to see,
Use my ears to hear,
And I am thankful that I am seeing things that I have never seen before.

And, no one has ever touched my heart this way...
And I know, it is not that guy...

To a Friend~

I haven't been blogging for such a long time now...

Life has been much better than it used to be. Met Mr. Boyfriend last weekend and it has been a blast! Sorry friends, I know I said I wanted to meet you all but there wasn't enough time.

As I can say that my relationship with Mr. Boyfriend has been wayyy lot better than it used to. After all the tears and sorrows that I thought I wouldn't even get through, God has been rewarding my patience. Even more better, I am much more closer to God.

I'm gonna make a big change in times.

But now, it is still time for me to seek for the truth.

And to Mr. Boyfriend, I never been so much in love (real-life love). Goodbye puppy love. I am now a grown up who needs a real-love and real-life issues.

Friends, please don't complain too much about your pupillage and your works. Life ain't easy. Unlike when we were in law school.

To dear miss.F, don't brag too much about your relationship. If you want a guy's view, of course it would be from my Mr. Boyfriend now that he is my best friend. He will say: Kick his ass off!! But since I am not harsh as he is; I would say: Just be patience. God will reward you on your patience. As I did mine. When you did not do any wrong, there's nothing you need to prove to him. And long distance relationship needs a whole lot of trust. And you know that you deserve better treatment than you're having now.

I love you guys~

When You Tell Me That You Love Me? Really~

"When You Tell Me That You Love Me"
(feat. Diana Ross)

I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everything's easy now
I have you here

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you
I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

You love me
When you tell me that you love me

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I used to be exactly what the song is trying to describe the feeling of loving someone so much, of wanting to be the best for that someone, of being wanting to do everything that would please that someone; for just a simple ‘I love you’ from that someone and the guarantees that that someone will be loving you, wanting you forever.

But after I watched “He’s Just Not That Into You”, it makes me think of the different implied meaning of this song. A version that ones might not see if they don’t think like I do. Always being myself, always being different from the bunch of people, always being wanting not to be the one being stereotyped by others…

…is by always having different versions of seeing things.

I always think that life is about pleasing other people. Pleasing my family, my friends, my boyfriend.

But then, someone made me think that I am being indoctrinated by culture, of what my parents, my grandparents, my teachers said; that I will never think out of the box, being afraid of doing things that my loved ones didn’t tell me to do.

But that was when that someone was talking about my religion.

In which I have found the ultimate wordings that will NEVER change my beliefs in MY God – Allah.

That someone was right; religion is ones personal assignment with God. So, since it is personal, no one will change my beliefs no more as I have said to myself that Islam is my religion and my personal assignment to God.

I don’t care anymore what those people will say but I know, those persons are not the ones who devoted themselves to seek for the truth to find the true real path to God. So therefore, I shall not follow what they believe cos that is what THEY believe, not ME. Maybe when they really do read what I’ve read, maybe they’ll see what I saw.

As that someone always said; I am stubborn.

Well, that’s it my friends, my doubts on religion is finally answered.

On the other hand, another doubt has not yet being answered (maybe because I never asked from God for help); is THE guy.

Back to the song I said before and also me having and wanting to always please other people around me. Well, there’s no harm being nice to people. I love being honestly nice to people (without having implied intentions). But then, when you’re being nice, some people may interpret it the otherwise; the least versions that you would think of (because you never ever have that kind of intention in your life). I mean it’s typical for honest intentions to be interpreted dishonestly. I’m indifferent by that.

But then, I always like to please people. Especially to my boyfriend. And yes, I am too indoctrinated by what I believe, but I guess, I have to change.

I used to always wanting to do the exact things that were sang by Diana Ross originally and being made a cover by Westlife. I thought that having someone to say “I love you” is the best thing could ever happen in my life i.e. having a guy to love.

But then, I’ve been through many relationships and for my surprise, none of them would really want me in a way that I want them to want me. Having to give me so many reasons as I can say, their excuses; reasons will always be reasons. And reasons can always be excuses (not mandatorily be though).

I’ve come to realize that love songs are meant to be for lovers. And when reality strikes, who is your love?

Lovers means mutual love. Not by one party but both parties.

But what differentiate lover who just want it to be lovers, and lovers who want it to make it real and happen?

I guess, the will of taking the risks of not knowing what will happen in the future.

The will of I-don’t-care-what-is-gonna-happen-in-the-future-but-I-just-can’t-let-her-go-from-my-life.

And till now, I that kind of person has not yet come to my life – literally.

And yes, I am using that person’s words on me (as I always do). I am now not going to be indoctrinated. Not by my family nor loved ones, but my own principle. I am now wanting to let go one of my lame, stupid principle that I used to hold on.

So now, I should stop pleasing guys. Cos I know now, it is time for them to please me.

Right girls??

When I Think I'm Suffering From Insomnia~

I thought that I could handle mockeries...

But then, I just couldn't.

I just can't not being myself. Everything I do is wrong to dis particular person.

I can't smile. Cos I smile too much.

I can't look. Cos I stare too much.

I don't know what kind of world I am in.

I miss our culture, our people...

Who smiles, who welcomes (which can mean inviting and seducing to certain clan of people), who are everything what I am.

A Malaysian.

No matter how bad the world sees us. No matter how bad people say about Malays, Chinese, Indians. I love them.

Now, please, some people, can't you just please try to respect other people? Try to respect other people's abilities. Try to respect other people's flaws. Try to respect even other people's religion.

I've decided. No matter how wrong impression I could give to other people, I wouldn't wanna care anymore. Cos I know, when I'm good, I'm good. Wrong impressions will turn out to be adoration at one point.

Some people just need to learn and respect. Not to change everything about us.

After all, we are not that bad, aren't we?

In Doubts~

My Darling made me rethink about my religion. He didn't choose for me but he made me think. All the questions that were lingering in my mind when I was a kid, came back to me now.

I don't know what to do. I am confused.

I need help...

Please...

About a Pants~

There’s this one pants I had,
It was supposed to be worn when I go to the theme park with my best friend;
But til now, it is not yet being done,
So I’d just wear it in the house;
Cos I wouldn’t wanna wear that kind of pants in front of people,
It’ll make me feel unsure;
When it is time to clean it,
Someone else will do it;
But it came back to me not the way it used to be,
And I told myself not to go to the laundry.

One day someone told me that I left my pants on the mattress,
Then I remember I did not own it and left there for ages;
Now I am thinking of what to do with the pants,
Should I throw it or keep it safe in hands?
It is kinda weary,
But I like to wear it;
Since I can’t decide it for me,
Please do it for me.

p/s: Someone is supposed to teach me how to rhyme. But it ended up me sounding like I'm in a primary school. (don't laugh!)

Tribute to Another Part of Me~

This is me~

This is my best friend. Dia amat rajin baca buku. (as if). Hehe.

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The first time I saw her was when I enrolled myself into UiTM for Pre-Law course. She was my roomate in Kenanga 2, room (i forgot).

There she was, puffing for air to breathe as she had to climb the staircase to level 3 (i think), together with her mother and also her pink polkadots bag (which took my attention so much). I didn't talk much to her as she was busy with her stuff.

I never knew the girl in front of me that moment would be my everlasting friend. We were in different courses. I read law and she did science (until now I can't remember her exact course). We started chatting between us in the room as my other friend, was always on her move.

We developed the same interests, the same view (especially about life), but thankfully, not the same type of guy. Hehe. We found out that our principals in life are almost the same, I can say, all the same. We view things very different from other girls that we've known.

There she was, my roomate for just two semesters and we started to be apart.

Yet, we became even closer.

I can still remember, she will always be there for me when I was not okay. It was kind of selfish of me that I went for her only when I was feeling so low. When I was not, I was with my boyfriend all the time. Yet, she never refused me. I knew from that moment, I knew she will always be there for me, whenever, whatever. She is my true friend...

I can still remember when we always splurged ourselves with Nasi Lemak Jati whenever we were all stressed out due to the final examinations. And after that, I'd drove her and me myself through the drive-thru for our fav McD's Strawberry Milkshake!! We even dated at Tasik Shah Alam with those ice-creams we bought at the park! (I miss that sooo much...)

I can still remember that I will always tell her that my main problem in life is to find the right guy for me. And she will always be there to listen to all my boring stories about guys and how they treated me. Even til now. And I just wish that there is a duplicate of her, who is a guy. She is too perfect for me!

I can still remember, when we even romantically dated together to see the fireworks competitions at Putrajaya, all of them (except for one team that I went with Najib). It was soooo lovely that I wish we were an item (hehehe. remember babe I told you that?). But of course, we will never be, cos she don't have one thing that I want. :-p

I can still remember that she came all the way from college to the workshop when I need some cash to pay for my old junk car that broke down. And she was also there when my old junk broke down in the middle of the fast-lane-road! She's my hero!

I can still remember when I cried so bad after she finished her diploma course, knowing I was gonna miss her so much. But then, she got enrolled herself to UiTM again for her degree. I knew we were meant to be together.

I can still remember when she had to leave, that I have no power to stop her, even if I do, I would never stop her from chasing her dreams... I knew I had to let her go. It was soooo hard for me, that I cried most of the time as I miss her soooo much. I felt like I couldn't cope with my studies, furthermore that was the time when both of my very loved ones had to go - her and Najib.

Life was hard for me...

But now, I'm beginning to face the reality. There are people that I have to let go. But for sure, I will never let her go away from my life. She can be not within my eyesight but she will never be beyond my mind, my heart.

She will never be apart from my life...

And tomorrow, is her birthday. It's a pity that I can't celebrate with her, there may be some other time. :-)

Babe, Happy Dearest Birthday to You!!! I love you so so so so so damn much! You even made me felt like wanting to be a lesbian sometime when guys were not good enough for me. Hehe. I love u!!!

About Today~

As I was driving my car on the busy Friday roads during peak hours of children going home from school, the employed Muslim men busy rushing their ways to get home early for the Friday prayers, I came to a T-junction where there were sooo many cars queued up to take their turning.

The hardest turning was the turning to the right.

When there is a traffic jam in Perlis, that's what we call unbelievable! That was what happened during lunch time just now after I picked up my brothers and sisters from school. Too much cars had to wait for just a simple small junction.

Until one car stopped.

It was an old junk that stopped and gave ways to the traffic from the left to turn to their right. And when I passed by, it was a very old car driven by an old man. What a considerate person he is.

I can imagine. Just by pressing your break and take your time for just 5 minutes, you make other people's life easier! Wayyyyy easier!

But I can't imagine this kind of situation would happen in Kuala Lumpur.

You'll be amazed to meet these kind of people living in KL. All they know is their own pleasure. They will park their car at the roadside and take their own leisure time to wait for someone. Or even at the junction, they won't even give ways for the cars that is desperately need to get out from a corner; that have waited there for more than 30 minutes.

Life in KL is way different than in Perlis. People are more inconsiderate back then in KL. All they think is money. I wonder if they have too much money, do they even know how to spend it?

All I can see is they buy luxurious cars, houses, assets, assets and more assets. Its a pity that they don't use that to go out from Malaysia and see what is there outside of the box. If I have the opportunity, I'd use that to go all over the world to see the different kinds of people and their culture.

I just love culture. It is what makes each and every country, different.

Culture also shows what kind of person you are.

Its a pity that people tend to like the way I am and didn't realise that why I am today and the reason I am me is because of the culture.

Nah, you can't see any kind of culture in KL except of loitering, money-spending and telling the world how rich they are and obviously how small their brains are. The more snobbish you are, the smaller your brains are.

I will always like to use this principal: When you're good, people will know you're good. You don't have to tell the world that you are good.

So, why the fuss of telling the whole world that you earn a lot of cash? Be humble, please!

And of course, you won't find these kind of people (whom wanna tell the whole world that they are rich) in Perlis.

All of us are the same.

The Long Run~

When I browsed through my friends' blogs, I knew this kind of feeling will occur: memories.

Athirah had put pictures of her firmates hanging out at Sunway and I wish Sunway is next to my house. Hehe. (I can't actually sleep now so I'm going to start writing nonsense here). I miss school soooo much. Starting a new life; the working life, is sooo boring. I'm not trying to say that I don't like my work. It's just that I miss all the fun that we've been through when we were students. I guess the thing that everybody has been saying is true after all - student life is the best phase of life. Now I have to think of liabilities. I have a car to pay and also a house.

You see, when you're in the law firm, all you have to do is to fix things. I guess Radhi would love his job so much as he said that he's a fixer! (Yela tu... Hahaha!). What my granpa said is correct after all. Being a lawyer is boring when all you see is people with problems. If they don't have problems, they won't come and see you.

But I guess, its nothing to brag about. Life is nothing without problems.

What I've learnt so far doing my unoffical chambering days are; well firstly, of course there're loads of work which will never ends (unless your firm is going to the drain). The best part is when I have to call other lawyers from other firms to ask about what am I suppose to do (especially the procedures) and what makes it interesting is that they never fail to attend to you and tell you the secret behind everything (even how to counter-argue them!). Cool eh? It is cool. And also the Court's staff, they are very very helpful and tak garang langsung.

Remember Puan Hajran said we have to deal with difficult clients? Well, I did. Muka poyo yang amat tu tak payah cakap la. Nada suara yang amat bongkak tu tak payah cakap la. Tapi, ada cara macam mana nak handle them and my granpa told me how and even showed me how. It was amazing. Trus diorg2 ni kasi business card and siap ckp kalo ade pape, just call them and they'll give discount rates of promotions etc. Heh. Its all about experience, right?

I don't know what my friends in any law firms in KL been doing throughout their chambering days til now but it is fun learning here. :-)

But, apart of learning, of course, it is boring here...

No friends to hang out here. Just plainly about family, family and family.

I'm not saying that I don't have friends here back then in my hometown. It's just that when you're into your work, you tend to annoy easily with people who doesn't think the same level as you are. This may sound like a discrimination but I guess I just can't bear with it. This is why, the emptiness in me came rushing and revealing it to the whole world.

I really really miss my Fadia now. Johor and Perlis is damn far. At least 12 hours journey by road. Luckily the power of virtual world keeps us alive in some way. I really wish we're not this far. I hope you can be there at my convocation this coming November, I guess. Or you're going to stress yourself to come to Perlis when I get myself called to the Bar. So, better choose! :-)

Talking about called to the Bar, I onced made Najib promised me that he'll come when I'll be called to the Bar eventhough he is there in Ireland. But then, it seems like it won't be like that anymore. There's no point of him wasting his time and money to just come and be there for my special occasion in Perlis. There are things that is not worth to do. I miss him though.

But then, things are different now...

Well, it is true what Fauzi told me months before. My life changes totally bits by bits when I start working (eventhough I am not officially employed) tapi buat keje lebih banyak dari pekerja. I see things differently now. So different. No more tiny-tiny, nonsense-nonsense stuff I used to do when was in law school. Part of me misses the fun back then, but part of me enjoys my new life, which I'm beginning to adapt bits by bits and loving it every moment (except part ngantuk gile after lunch, rasa nk tido je dlm office mcm slalu buat dkt klas) hehe...

I miss Radhi yang suka mencabar kesabaran setiap org di dalam klas, I miss CT yang berlaser-laser dgn firmatesnya, I miss Akmal yg penuh dgn idea-idea ntah mana dia dpt (boleh jadi Azwan Ali 2. hehe..), I miss Ana yang sentiasa sabar je dgn firmatesnya yg pemalas yg amat, I miss Che Nad dan penutup telinganya yg digunakan olehnya utk terbang bebas, I miss Lily dgn gayanya yg original, I miss Kak Linda and her stories of her happy family especially Adam, I miss Shida yg dgn gelak besarnya, I miss Athirah di hujung sana yg selalu kurang sabar dgn ujian-ujian kesabaran yg ditest oleh Sang Radhi, I miss Abg Rusnan yg sentiasa geleng kepala tgk gelagat rakan-rakan kelasnya yg mmg confirm tak matang, ohhh!!!! I miss the part when semua org menanam harapan yg tinggi agar menu breakfast di luar pintu klas akan berubah instead of nasi goreng, nasi goreng, nasi goreng. I miss everything!! And I miss the cheer steps dgn lagu Korea tu, dgn letihnya berlatih tak reti-reti and last-last semua berterabur jgk. Hehe. I miss semua org gentar dgn kehadiran tokwan Rajes. I miss da sarcasm of everyone bila stress melanda diri. I miss the whole class!!!

Wahhh.... Rindu bangat sama korang!!!!

I wanna see you guys growing up like me, and see the difference nanti during our convocation.

Life is so different now. I knew I'm gonna change and be a different person when I get back home. I knew the kind of life and the kind of people that used to amaze me would change. And so does my frog prince...

To my frog prince, (if you ever read this), thanks for being part of my life, being the one who keep me in one piece whenever I fall into pieces, thanks for making my life felt so alive eventhough my soul and my body is not intact, thanks for always wanna at least make me happy eventhough you didn't even know that you're making me felt that way, thanks for all the advises, thanks for the things that you showed that make me realise that you are not the one. I cherish every moment being with you. I thought you were the one but I guess you showed me the otherwise...

I love you...

But that was the past.

The present: I know I've found him but I'm taking my own sweet time. He makes me proud of being what I am, regardless of how I look like, what I look like. He make me feel good. He teaches me how to be a lady (not physically but mentally - an iron lady). He makes me feel like there's no one to dissapoint me just because of my ambitious dreams. He makes me see the other side of the world. He makes me learn more about things that I couldn't learn if not because of him. He makes me sooo fragile (cos I am only fragile to my loved ones). He makes me feel I'm worth it. He makes me realise that it's such a lost that other guys didn't see what I have and what I got. He makes me feel like I don't need a guy (but I know I do). He makes me feel like I'm 35.

And I love him for that...

So much...

That I am prepared for the worst.

p/s: I miss his melancholic voice when he sang songs. He touches my heart so easily...

Officially, Unofficial~

Today, I'm officially doing my unofficial read in chambers.

Kinda boring though. Tapi nasib baik office buruk tokwan ni ada internet.

At least...

The Long Awaited Post~

I am back home now. Feeling bored and lonely. I miss KL and Shah Alam sooooo much. How I wish I'm there right now. But, reality keeps punching me back. I have to do my chambering here.

Well, I managed to do things that I wanted to do before I came back to Perlis; which are:

1. Went to Masai, Johor just to meet my true friend, Fadia. We had loads of FUNNNN!!! I feel like settling down there! :-) Thanks for the trip!
   
2. Had a meal at Old Town Kopitiam with Fauzi.
3. Went to Zoo Negara with Ronald.
4. Went to IKEA with Ronald.
5. Indulge myself with ice-cream and loved ones.
6. Fall in love.

Now I am at home, missing everybody back in KL and Shah Alam and Johor. Chambering is not fun when having the thought that I can't physically meet my friends here. I think I'm gonna ask for a lot of days off from work so that I can go to KL. Besides, all I have to do is to redeem back for the days that I do not go to work.

I can't write smoothly as I don't know how to express my loneliness.

I feel bad...

Culture~

Life has been very good. :-)

I did miss meeting Fadia when she was back here in KL due to a lot of plans that I've made and wouldn't have the power to cancel them. So, nevermind of it, I will go to JB instead!!! :-D

I love my life right now as I am cherishing all the people around me.

The best thing is that, I now know that my frog prince do love me in his own ways. :-D

I am waiting for the day that my family will come and pick me up yet I haven't been packing up yet!! I know I'm gonna be in big trouble if I don't start now. But then, my lazy mood is still conquering my body.

U see, I have been friends with these foreigners. Things that came to my mind that are making me cherish for what I am now. I don't wanna be in anywhere else than Malaysia (and be with the ones I love).

My friend once asked me why are the Malays kept having these kind of attitude of being comfortable and satisfied in whatever they have. I know that these attitude are going to get us back but I THINK that we are slowly, secretly trying to improve ourselves.

Yes, the other races might lead OUR country but things just came out from my head that bits by bits, the youths are realizing this situation bits by bits. The youths with brains, I mean.

I didn't know that there are certain foreigners just don't like the way our culture work. The fact that we have culture.

Culture.

(I shall update later what it means by this)

Another McD Obsession~

I just love McD so much! And I’m gonna miss McD so much when I get back to Perlis. (yeah, Perlis mmg xde McD; nasib baik jugak xde kalo tak mmg my family jadi pelanggan tetap and all us would be as huge as Shrek!!)

Right in front of me is a young couple with a very very cute son. The husband muka Cina habis but his son mata bulat gile!! (I wanna marry now and have kids!!)

Typical, the son is showing his tantrum and his dad was like dah geram2 dah dengan anak dia. Mak dia sabar je… Bagus la mak macam ni. I wonder whether Mama was patient with me when I was small (or I was such a very good girl. Hehe). Adoila, anak dia cute bangat!! I dunno why but I think the father is a doctor. McD Pandan Jaya lagi best dari McD Shah Alam cos lagi banyak kids coming here. I’ve been talking to 2 Chinese strangers since I sat here. One was a school boy and another one was a college boy doing accountancy course.

On second thought, the baby dah kurang comel. Hehe.

Daddy called me just know and I know he was very eager for me to come back to Perlis. I duno whether I can bear living in Perlis in long period of time cos I can foresee that I might be having arguments with Daddy again. But I’ll never know. I am more mature, and Daddy is now much much more wiser than when he was young. Mama too was eager for me to come back when she called me earlier. We talked about Najib. Mama said, for now, accept what it is now. If ada jodoh, ada lah. If takde, buatla macam mana pon, takde jugak. I know that Mama now is much more wiser too.

I love it when people around me gets mature as I am getting mature too. No more getting annoyed of Mama when she whines like a small girl (I wish).

:-)
Previously, there was this guy with a small little boy. I think he was the grandfather of the said boy. Kesian tengok that guy terkapai-kapai makan dkt McD. Rasa macam nak pegi tolong je amikkan sos, straw, etc. Then I heard him calling someone and said “beras dah abis”. Padanla datang McD makan ye.

I think I need a husband now!
:-p

Another McD Obsession~

I just love McD so much! And I’m gonna miss McD so much when I get back to Perlis. (yeah, Perlis mmg xde McD; nasib baik jugak xde kalo tak mmg my family jadi pelanggan tetap and all us would be as huge as Shrek!!)

Right in front of me is a young couple with a very very cute son. The husband muka Cina habis but his son mata bulat gile!! (I wanna marry now and have kids!!)

Typical, the son is showing his tantrum and his dad was like dah geram2 dah dengan anak dia. Mak dia sabar je… Bagus la mak macam ni. I wonder whether Mama was patient with me when I was small (or I was such a very good girl. Hehe). Adoila, anak dia cute bangat!! I dunno why but I think the father is a doctor.

McD Pandan Jaya lagi best dari McD Shah Alam cos lagi banyak kids coming here. I’ve been talking to 2 Chinese strangers since I sat here. One was a school boy and another one was a college boy doing accountancy course.

On second thought, the baby dah kurang comel. Hehe.

Daddy called me just know and I know he was very eager for me to come back to Perlis. I duno whether I can bear living in Perlis in long period of time cos I can foresee that I might be having arguments with Daddy again. But I’ll never know. I am more mature, and Daddy is now much much more wiser than when he was young. Mama too was eager for me to come back when she called me earlier.

We talked about Najib. Mama said, for now, accept what it is now. If ada jodoh, ada lah. If takde, buatla macam mana pon, takde jugak. I know that Mama now is much more wiser too.

I love it when people around me gets mature as I am getting mature too. No more getting annoyed of Mama when she whines like a small girl (I wish).

J

Previously, there was this guy with a small little boy. I think he was the grandfather of the said boy. Kesian tengok that guy terkapai-kapai makan dkt McD. Rasa macam nak pegi tolong je amikkan sos, straw, etc. Then I heard him calling someone and said “beras dah abis”. Padanla datang McD makan ye.

I think I need a husband now!

:-p